Five of Pentacles Tarot: money's bad and i keep pretending i'm busy instead of asking for help
hours got cut. rent's late-ish. phone on silent when friends plan dinners i can't afford. i say "slammed this week" like it's true. it's half true. the other half is shame. don't want the pity voice. don't want advice i already know (budget, apply, sell stuff).
pulled "what am i in" and Five of Pentacles upright. two figures in snow outside a lit window. cold, left out, help right there and not going in.
is this card just "yeah you're in a hard stretch" or is it yelling at me to stop isolating. because asking feels worse than the snow