Nine of Swords and Death Tarot: every night my brain says it's over — is that truth or panic?
awake again at 3:11. same movie: resign tomorrow, end the relationship, tell everyone before they leave me first. by breakfast the panic softens and i go to work like a person. then night returns and the script starts over.
nothing exploded this week. no letter. no diagnosis. just the loop.
two-card on "is something actually ending" — Nine of Swords upright, Death upright. night-terror card next to the chapter-end card.
is Death a real close i keep delaying, or is Nine of Swords dressing panic up as destiny?