Death and The Star Tarot: hospital scare is over — why does hope still feel fake?
got the all-clear last month. friends threw a small dinner. i smiled. went home and sat in the dark like the news might reverse if i looked too happy.
old routines feel wrong. new ones feel fake. people say "you're through it." my body still flinches at appointment reminders.
two-card on "what now" — Death upright, The Star upright. end-of-chapter card next to the soft-hope card.
is Star real recovery light, or am i supposed to force gratitude while i'm still scared?