Five of Cups and The Sun Tarot: i still miss them — why did a good day show up anyway?
four months since the split. i still walk past our old café like an idiot. most days the spilled cups win. yesterday a friend dragged me outside and i actually laughed at something dumb. then i felt guilty like joy was cheating on the grief.
two-card on "am i allowed to feel okay yet" — Five of Cups upright, The Sun upright. mourning card next to the clear-joy card.
is Sun saying the worst of the grief fog is lifting, or am i betraying the loss by feeling warm for an afternoon?