Three of Swords Tarot: i saw the texts and now i can't unsee them
unlocked the laptop for a charger. notification preview. enough to know. closed it. sat on the floor. heart doing the cartoon stab thing for real.
asked what now and Three of Swords upright showed up like a joke. heartbreak, painful truth, rain. i didn't need the metaphor. i needed a next step that isn't screaming or silence forever.
do i ask tonight while it's hot... or wait until i can talk without shaking. also part of me wants to pretend i didn't see it so the weekend stays normal. hate that part